About Mars
The founder of the Dragons Tails
Why are you here?
To live.
Existence has been an annoyance to me for a long time. I’ve wanted to murder my self more times than that I wanted to celebrate life. That mentality has changed; though I did acquire my desire.
Now I’m sharing impressions of the abyss with you, so you can remember how to dream again. My journey out of the abyss started and ended with the concept of joy. The purpose of my life has become to live it, while the purpose of life itself continues to be my field of study. Within that capacity, I hold the role of a mystic. Not to be mysterious myself, but rather to reflect mystery back to others, as I embody my own truth.
Meanwhile, I’m here to fucking enjoy life! I want to experience it, I don’t want to own it. I’m not possessed by my obsessions, be they material or ethereal. Life is a game that invites you to have an epic adventure. I choose to build a narrative that will leave the world trembling in the after shock.
How do I do ‘it’?
Since I’ve decided that the term ‘creative multifarious being’ fits me best so far, I express myself as I see fit in the present moment. Currently, this is primarily through the medium of the written word. I use it to form poems, journals, essays, and stories. But mostly I use this medium to create an experience.
Generally speaking, this means that I speak my heart without limiting my self. I embody unconditional love whenever I can, while holding honesty as my greatest value.
My mission is to guide people as an equal, through healing towards dreaming; from the essence of love and clarity.
This mission is driven by a plethora of implausible, unlikely, and unrealistic visions, because humanity grows like a person: through embracing the unknown. Only those individuals who were willing to be delusional, while consciously choosing to face adversity, have twisted the fate of our species. We might as well join them, what else are we going to do? Suffer?
I cover the tough subjects, while keeping it playful where I can. I also paint ridiculous, absurd, and pointless scenes for you within the script that we have collectively chosen to be meaningful.
This game we all play is supposed to be an enjoyable experience and I intend to reflect that to you. However, the choice on how you perceive my gift, remains forever within the realm of your free will. The magick happens within the space between your decision and my offer.
Who do I embody?
As mentioned before, currently the best term I’ve found is: a creative multifarious being.
I exist, therefore I am. Even when I stop being, I remain in existence: I become. Existence is a flow of contraction and expansion into and out of the unknown; we are reflections of this motion. In this present moment, that form of flux is what I call a being. A person is too descriptive, because I cannot even confirm that I am a human, let alone that this reality that I experience is an absolute truth. All I know, is that I exist and that this act of existing in this moment, is called being. This is clear to me.
To exist, I was created. In order to be created, my “I” required to become. Making me existence itself and the creator of life; I am from which I came. I am love. Whether that is mother/father/nature/omniverse is irrelevant; I belong to the entire chain of progression. Creation is embracing that process of becoming without limitations, and materializing my perspective in this realm. As such, I am a sourceror: I wield energy and manifest my desires into being. This could be as an artist, this could be as an entrepreneur, this could be during sex, or when I make a sandwich. The act of creation is within and between our breaths. We are one with all.
Like a crystal, I’m made of the mountain. As the wave, I’m made of the ocean. As the wind, I’m made of the air. As the sun, I’m made of motion. I am one with all.
Within the act of being the crystalline wave, I refract the light that shines on me. It radiates the facets that form my true being into existence. Some of those facets I write on, others are yet to be discovered. For now, you can at least expect me to cover areas like:Self actualization (e.g. creativity)
Mysticism (e.g. magick)
Spirituality (e.g. unity consciousness)
Nature (e.g. permaculture)
Society (e.g. justice)
Technology (e.g. internet)
Rarely will I share an opinion or perspective on something unless I have practiced what I preached. I’ve lived through depression, mania, bipolar disorder, psychosis, social anxiety, agoraphobia, loneliness, ostracization, bullying, neglect, emotional abuse, divorce, and more. I’ve also built myself up after living on social welfare, to have a successful career as a cybersecurity strategist, while emigrating twice, raising two kids with my ex, and living off grid.
Finally, I’m a dreamer, a visionary, an innovator. I love change and curse it as well when I’m in the process of changing. It’s the dance of life and I really enjoy living in fantastical realms and sharing what I imagine with you through the form of fiction. You won’t find the bulk of that that here on Substack, but I will share bits and pieces of it with you here, until I have a place where I can direct you for the full experience.
For an even more extensive understanding of who I embody, I recommend that you just check out my posts or subscribe to receive my weekly newsletter.
But you may just look for a face to the name, so here are some of my many faces:
What does a free subscription provide you?
Connection. The reason I’m writing isn’t just to share my pontifications with you, but to form a heartfelt community. One where I’m not a leader in the conventional sense, but rather one where we are all guiding each other. I want to be a voice for the voiceless, because speaking on topics like mental health, mysticism, magick, spirituality, aliens, and more can be rough. You may first just want to test your ideas in a safe place that is open to all interpretations of reality. I will listen and I expect anyone that joins the community to do the same.
As someone who had a career in security, finding a safe place was a goal of mine for a long time. Equally, I’ve been bullied a lot in my life and won’t tolerate any behavior which ridicules your opinion. Your perspective is valid and your voice matters.
Practically a subscription now comes down to:
Getting notified in the app and via email whenever I post
The option to chat with likeminded people
For the moment that’s it, because I still enjoy the privilege of having a small community to interact with. As we grow, I’ll be facilitating other avenues to connect and grow with each other. Something like a forum/discord/etc.
What does a paid subscription provide you?
Nothing. It doesn’t exist as it goes against my ethos to limit my expression to a subset of humanity. Certain creations must be shared, others are for my own enjoyment. On Substack, I don’t require payment for you to access my creations; I accept donations instead so I can continue sharing them with everyone regardless of their financial privileges. If you’re willing to send a donation monthly, that would be amazing for the quality of what you and the rest of the world will receive. It makes sense doesn’t it? Instead of me applying my creativity to gaining resources, I can apply it to delve into my heart instead.
If you do donate, you won’t be my patron. I revolt against how that term is being used, even though the definition sounds nice. In our current culture there’s this idea that you owe a patron something; which just makes it veiled wage slavery. I don’t want that kind of connection with anyone. What I do is up to me, not you. What you give is up to you, not me. If you think what I do is valuable, then support me. If you stop thinking it’s valuable; stop supporting me. I’m not making any promises, because that’s not how creativity or life work.
We don’t need a contract to know that we can rely on each other. It’s why I’ll never coerce you, we’re both worth more than that. I choose to play instead, because acting from desperation sucks. If I can’t play, then that just means I need to pivot into something new. Meanwhile, I understand that you want to let your guard down and have a human connection, without running into artificial limitations. That’s what I’m going for here. I strive to embody unconditional love where and when I can, while remaining honest with myself and my environment.
Enterprise
I’m not naive though; while I strive for unconditional love as the dream that needs to be attained. I recognize as well that boundaries are necessary to secure the resources that I require in our current fear led world. So while my hope is that I can continue on donations alone, there may be moments where I will be providing products at a price. All of which depends on the environment in which I find myself.
Finally, I may also inform you about other enterprises I’ll endeavor to materialize into being and ask you to support me in those. This ranges from writing books to humanitarian startups.
That’s it!
If you read this far, you deserve this:
I’m looking forward to connecting with you soon!
