Fearing Love's Reflections
The doubts reflected by infinity's mirror
A poem or a cry for help Pride breaking through a pained yelp I once was loved and then chose to love myself Cries of eternity echoing bittersweet divinity… uhh elf Creation flows through me like a river untamed Years of bottled truth in the process of being unshamed The mustangs flight seen through eagles sight Untethered visions of a pitch black night Relating to one is akin to relating to all Yet one for all and all for one, is a mindset too small Where there once were friends and romance Exists now only the deep well with its siren call Depth is no stranger to me I would rather be at its mercy than that of subversive superficiality But depth without surface has no interface Here again I find myself in fear’s cold embrace A multifaceted experience across realms, dimensions, and planes Some call it a song, others a game, to me its a story; we all call it the same Life is more than a mystery and less than a motion to survive Once I wished to marry death, today I seek to thrive without strife While I revel in its complexity and embrace its honesty I find myself lost in the simple acts of conformity Have I met people too many or missed out on experiencing a life too little Or was it all enough since what exists outside, lies within The flow falters as the shadow falls Did I dream too big or was I mesmerized by community’s calls Am I empowered in solitude or destined to fail When I seek I get called to surrender When I surrender I’m adrift without sail I desire adventure within and exploration of the all To interact with the physical and exchange the present To grow and exist beyond imagination’s limits It’s just that the first step seems too small Where does a story start that exists within infinity… Anyway… I’m looking for connection and community. When the world was younger and my dreams were wilder I was to build my legacy and required a fighter I found an ally and two decades passed We fought our demons, expanded our reach, but it couldn’t last During this time I met characters with whom I could relate Some I thought would stay forever Expectations can hurt but they feel great In the end, not a single person remained I might be the greatest villain needing to be detained If so, it was worth it for the love within, which has been regained Yet my pride still remains strong The blanket of words became way too long Like a bird this could be an endless song