Reflected Lingering Gaze
AI review: A dark, visceral poem of tangled desire, haunting memories, and conflicted love, exploring inner turmoil and relentless yearning.
Image: DeviantArt | Heylenne
A dark shriveled tree of ages past A gnarly memory of love meant to last The critic arrives and dusts off his coat It’s time to draw the bridge up from the moat But I refuse a claw rips the bridge back in place The critic grins and tries to defuse With equal joy I rip his teeth through his face As I gaze upon the puddle that was me I know I’m not free She still haunts my destiny Despair builds its pressure on my sanity Her essence is that of a lily’s leaf in a spring breeze… Her influence is grotesque and gnaws on my trunk! She weaves her web with determined ease… She floods my system with useless junk! The tales I’m told are of joy and splendor Some days I rue when I chose to honor my self The moment passes and I wish to defend her Now the time arrives to add complexity from the shelf Perhaps the visions I had were not of her Perhaps the way I roamed over her curves was just my imagination destroying the cage in which it was trapped Perhaps my sight was misaligned with structured time Perhaps her view on my life was my story read through her ethereal grime The other lady lurks in the depths and observes A queen of the underworld A descendent of Lilith She strokes my nerves A single strand of silk blowing in the wind Nearly indistinguishable from the elements of which it’s made Placed and maintained with finesse Impossible to catch before it will fade This is a woman of power and strength… The way her image ripples makes me roar I want to rip off the door Draw blood across her length… Yet are these reflections of the same female? Is this all just a game? Do I merely experience exquisite detail? Could this somehow be my path out of shame? Panting, wild eyed, I wander My dreams are torn asunder Trembling, taut, I ponder Soft skin clenched between my teeth I crave her The fog fills thicker My blood pumps quicker The one captures me with beauty The other draws me with a gaze I’ve been dropped in a maze A wild mind rushing out of phase A swelling heart desiring a cutie A collapsing body preventing a remedy Diamond chrysalis Tremors of lifetimes passed Egyptian structures that crumbled too fast A soul’s journey that ended before it could last Where and who are you now my dear? How and what can I do to bring you near? Why on occasion do you fill me with fear? I try to move forward, but I just sink deeper I try to move toward, but I just grow heavier What I transmute is a drop of an ocean What I require is to cover your hills in lotion A journey that moves from body to heart Despite my sovereignty without you I won’t depart